Fools Reflection

After bowing in front of the audience on Saturday night I realized that the play was over.  It was an interesting feeling because even though I was happy of the outcome, I am sad that it is over.  Honestly, it was something in my life that had wanted to do, but I never had the chance to do so.  I can finally say that I did this and I am happy that for once in my life I did something that I truly wanted.  I have always had a passion for theater, but I have always second guessed myself.  Am I not good enough? What will others think of me?  A lot of my friends were surprised when I joined the play since they didn't know that I liked it and they thought I only took the course for an easy grade.  However, I really like theater and it was nice to do something that I truly enjoyed even if my friends didn't like it.  Why would I care?  As for the play itself, I was really surprised that it went the way it did.  By the end of the last rehearsal I wasn't sure if it was going to be funny or not because I had seen the play so many times that it became boring.  What was key for me was to practice with my hair and costume because I could practice my walk and stance, which was something I wasn't able to do before since I wasn't used to walking around with a cape.  Honestly, Thursday was my favorite day because I was so surprised that it went that well and even though I believe my Saturday performance was better, Thursday was a special day for me.  It was special because of the nerves and it was my first time on stage on a actual play and when everyone laughed at me, the feeling was priceless.  Friday was the day that I least liked since that was when I was feeling sick.  I didn't go to school that day and just after the performance I went to the bathroom to throw up.  My voice was lost, the audience didn't laugh as much as the first night, and although the performance wasn't bad, that night was hell for me.  Finally came Saturday, which was the best dramatic performance I have had in my life.  I didn't have a voice, but I managed to pull it through since my character was funnier with the lower voice.  Although my best performance was on Saturday, that Thursday night will be one of those moments that will stay with me for the rest of my life.